LaDy D: January 2011

at d cmpus now,..alone..dunno wer is my roomate..mayb she is workin or sleep at her fren's room..hmm well, always like diz..but even she is in d room we dun hv much topic 2 talk with..hmm..
2mrrow will b my 3rd week working at nexus..i hv no feeling with my job..no passiona at all..n 2mrrow also my boss will b back 2 work..then morning briefing will b back again..boringg...if i hv somethin 2 say or share mayb i will b excited but there is nothin..haiz..dun like diz..
wat would happen 2mrrow, i also hv no idea..must b he will ask me wat hv i learnt a week b4..can i juz say it learnt nothin much..? if he want 2 fired me i dun care..accept it without feelin embarrass..im ok..im fine..this job is not suit 4 me at all..coleague not supporting me at all, there nothin much they taught me 4 bout 2 weeks..huh
wat shud i do 2mrrow..?haizz...i hate diz thought n feeling..arrrgghhh
God..plz help me..i dunno wat 2 do at diz moment..thnx 4 always b with me until now..

im at my bro's houze now..feel so calm..happy 2 b here after a 5 days stayin at d cmpus..feel so relaxing here..hmm iwish i could stay here evryday..huhu it is quite difficult 4 me stayin at d cmpus..i hv no frens 2 chill with..if got, we hv different tme of workin..they r workin by shift while me fllow d ofis hour..so evryday i hv 2 do evrythin by myself..so lonely there..huhu
i started feelin uncomfortable with my job..its not really suite to me..i juz cannot handle it..i dont hv d pasion of workin there..seems dat they r not friendly 2 me..or mayb it me dat cannot adjust myself to d work environment..i juz dont like d environment..mayb bcoz i dont know wat job i hv 2 do..?hmm to be honest im not happy workin there..
wat shud i do now..? quit? gosh..diz is juz difficult 4 me..huhu how can i continue my work there..;(

got a lil bit tired 2day..hv 2 clean up d desk dat full with a bunch of file..hmm but enjoy it compare 2 yesterday
2day i did d monthly report..juz key in d figures n seem easy 4 me..hee
n d panic guy owez make me panic also..haiz things will not get bad as u think bha..hmm
workin on d contrct again..i feel a bit confuse but improve la..confuse with d rate n all d market..im not familiar with d agent2x owh..which market d are..huhu
hope 2mrow will be better than 2day..
have 2 b patience ryte..ok..gambate!

2day a bit tired coz i went 4 inspection with my colleague..now i know wat they mean by inspection..its actually showing d resort 2 them..hmm..need 2 explain all bout d resort..i think i still cant do dat..i hv not enough info bout d resort yet..hv 2 study more la..
i hv done my promotion update n 2mrrow hv 2 wait a new task..still hv no idea..everyday hv 2 briefing ka? malas la..boring..hv 2 standing n listen 2 all of them talking bout wat they want 2 do..haiz..i can juz do my work? admin? hmmm..i dunno if i can stand with diz job..its look like too hard 4 me 2 catch up..if only admin yes..i can do..but if they want me 2 see d client..then no..still not ready yet..
n 1 thing that i dont understand is they think that i can automatically catch up wat they ask me 2 do 4 d 1st tyme..yes i can if they explain 2 me more n clearly.but they didnt do that..huh
wat shud i do? i want 2 work but i cannot work with this kind of situation..huhu
God pls help me..i almost give up..;(

2day wasn't really bzy 4 me..juz continuing doin my work..updating d promotion..hmm...wen im gonna learn new thing...
hmm..im thinking bout my buddy, she didn't trust me dat i can do d work..she didn't let my colleagues 2 teach me new things..haiz..hw im gonna improve like diz..? she said "hmm..dona still cannot do that.." then wen will im gonna improve my skill if she dont want 2 teach me..even d works dat she ask me 2 do yesterday she didnt explain at all..why we need 2 do dat..wat shud i 2st look wen doin dat things n so on...she juz said dat 'ok,u do diz n diz..let me knoe if u didnt understnd.."4 me, d thing dat she ask me 2 do is easy actually if she explain 2 me well n details..but she juz ask me like im a kid dat didt hv any knowldge at all..or she juz afraid dat i will do better in quickly...hmmm...i wonder..
hope 2mrrow will be better thn 2day..
no frens that really suit to me at my workplace..either they r too young or too old 4 me..hmm...but hv to be really patient on diz situation...sooner or later it will b ok i guess..gambate 4 me..hehehe

2day satisfied a bit coz i've got work 2 do..hehe compare 2 yesterday, 2day is quite ok 4 me workin there..n d buddy finally ask me 2 do smthing..well, she hv 2 coz boss ask her 2 do so..hee
a bit tired 2day coz hv 2 clean up the ofis room..bunch of files, boxes, magazines n so on..haizz..lucky d chinese trainee help me..n she is so nice..happy 2 know her..;)
hmm..2day i learnt hw 2 do market intelligence (MI)..its is an exchnge of information wit d competitors..hv 2 knw bout d arrivals, in house n events they hv..get thru email or calling them..again..i still afraid 2 pick up d ofis phone..ahhaha coz i dunno hw 2 answer it..afraid i dunno wat 2 say n answer if they ask me smthin dat i dunno..huhu hv 2 work on diz..
hv a problm lor..i need 2 open my cimb acc b4 i get my slry...hw ya..i dun hv trnsport 2 go..haizz..mayb sme1 can help me..wish ryte now..;)
i miss my leisure tme but i hv 2 gain exprience 1t n earn sme mney 4 my saving..want 2 take my DL..can't wait..hhehehhe

new year 4 me a.k.a a career woman.. 10 jan i start working at nexus as sales co and i've been worked there bout 2 days oredi..
i didn't expect dat i will b hired by d co since i hv no exprnce at all bout diz job..im a bit worry wit my prfrmce now as i hv to learn all frm d basic things.
2 days of working there, i totally blank n confused. furthermore, all the staff were busy n they did not hv much tme to teach me evrythin..i felt unconfortable n useless..da 1 dat has been assigned to buddy me was a bit unfriendly to me..not as a staff but as her job to tell me n teach me bout evrything..i dunno wat her problm is..she supposed 2 teach me but she juz ignored me n do her own work.
i juz felt a bit upset n frustrated bcoz she makes me looks like useless n dumb. information also not enough ..haizz...i shud i do?
evry mrning we hv briefing..hmm quite good la..but evry1 hv their own updte not me..im hv nothin 2 say..i wish i can tell smthing 2 d Dosm but nothi..hmmm
there times wen i think dat im not suitable 4 da job..i need somethin dat i know hw to do without waiting 4 them 2 teach me..wat wud b da job huh?
i also dunno..but i hope i can more 4 d next day..finger cross.
stay at campus n feel lonely..no frens..got but juz fren 2 go 2 work...huhu evry day bought ns cmpur at canteen.. lucky got market but d goods not really complete bha..hmm...
hv 2 sleep now in my bed which is juz good..wat 2 do..i hv 2 b patient..yeahh...

LaDy D